Well, I’ve just started the
second and final year of the Photography 3: Advanced course and events have
taken a turn for the worse. I had felt reasonably happy with my submission for
the 4th course assignment, having produced a very early draft ‘mock
up’ of a photo book incorporating 33 images to accompany text on a ‘one image
per double page spread’ basis. Roughly a quarter of these images were new,
whilst the remainder had been modified, to a greater lesser extent, or replaced
following comments from my tutor after Assignments 2 and 3. I had divided the
book up into four chapters and accompanied each chapter heading with a new,
very different looking square image (giving me a set of four). I was happy with
these new images, each of which related to the content of the appropriate
chapter. Full commentary on the submission, my reasons for making changes and
the degree of flexibility that was retained was sent as part of the submission.
A few days later I spoke to my
tutor on ‘Skype’ (and these discussions are invaluable for me – thanks to him
for setting them up) and it was clear that there were problems. He discussed
the images mostly in general terms, also picking out one or two specific
examples, and listed ‘nine and a half’ as being presentable. Only one of the new
images that I had produced was included in the list, so it appeared that my
work during the summer months had been of little value. We didn’t
discuss why images had been excluded by him nor, in most cases, whether there
was anything salvageable from them. That will come later. In the mean time I am
left to ponder what I can do with 9.5 images and a load of text that will turn
this into a portfolio worthy of submission for assessment.
So why am I struggling with this
project and what can I do about it? The first question is difficult to answer,
but after some thought I have come up with two main reasons. The answer to the
second question is, as Dylan put it, “blowing in the wind”.
Reasons for Struggling Part 1
I am attempting to present my
photographic work in a radically different way, blending archival photographs
from the time when my mother was alive with either other archival images or (in
the vast majority of cases) with images taken by me specifically for the
project. The goal was to produce a photo book dealing with my mother’s battle
against depression in her later years and how it affected me. My tutor has been
very helpful in giving me references to (photographic) artists who blend two or
more current images together and also artists who have produced portfolios of
work relating to their mothers, fathers and/or other family members or acquaintances
who may have been suffering from disabilities. I have been active in finding many other
references in these areas. However, I am unaware of any photographer who has combined a
restricted number of not very good archival family photographs with current
images to try to tell a moving family story. I can’t ask my mother to pose now
(in January 2017 it will be ten years since she died), I can’t photograph
inside her house (long since sold) or in the garden. I do have a handful of
photographs of the bare rooms of the house following clearance (and I have used
these in a couple of images). In other words I have very limited resources to
put together my montages and this has led to some repetition, particularly in
the portraits of my mother that I have used.
Reasons for Struggling Part 2
In the montages I have tried in
some cases to depict images that reference events that are described in
the accompanying text. Some of the results are, by my own admission, crude and/or
naïve. Worse still – and here we have the crux of the problem – they may not
add anything at all to the text. The text may promote empathy in the reader,
whilst the images leave them cold. If this is the case I might end up having to
remove a lot of the images from the book, leaving a lot of text with a
handful of images – hardly assessment material for a project in photographic
art.
Which of the various art forms
moves me the most? Which stirs up the greatest emotions? I have to put music
(certain types) at the top of the list, followed perhaps by the spoken word,
films (which often have a music sound track) and the written word. Photography
comes at the bottom of the list! Not only that, but I am discovering that it is
easier for me to arouse empathy and emotion through the written word than
through my photography (I’m not a musician, although I do occasionally write
poetry). It is no wonder, then, that a lot of my montage images are failing to
elicit a positive response.
This issue was brought home to me
when I watched the documentary ‘A World without Downs Syndrome’, presented by
Sally Phillips, a scriptwriter with an 11 year old child with Downs Syndrome.
Phillips argued passionately for all mothers to have the right to choose
whether to bring children with Downs Syndrome into the world, having been fully
informed about the issues involved at the eight week stage now that recently
developed non-invasive technology can be used with a high degree of certainty to
detect Downs’ babies at that point. Furthermore, she stressed how sad and
isolated people with Downs Syndrome would feel if all ‘Downs pregnancies’ were
in future terminated. As part of the documentary she visited Iceland, where
currently 100% of Downs pregnancies are (with parental approval) being
terminated. She spoke with an Icelandic photographer who had produced a project
portfolio of over 30 images of the very few Icelandic people having Downs
Syndrome. I thought back to so many exhibitions that I have visited where
people from minorities, migrants and people with disabilities have had their
portraits taken, the portraits then being displayed in order to make political
and/or socio-economic statements. Am I moved by these portraits? Very rarely.
Does the accompanying text move me? More often. It is true that the images may
ignite peoples’ interest in who these people are and common bond they have.
However, the hard-hitting message is in the text or, in the case of Sally
Phillips’ case, the spoken word and moving image. Even though I did not feel
the desire to take sides in the debate I was moved by this programme in a way
that would not have been possible if I had walked into a studio and seen 30+
photographs of Icelandic Downs’ Syndrome people.
What Way Forward?
So, I have identified what I feel
are the key reasons for why my project may go ‘off the rails’. Basically, I
have chosen a unique but extremely challenging photographic method of
describing my mother’s battle with depression and its effect on me and the
resultant images have not, in many cases, worked. In addition the prose that
accompanies the images is likely to raise significantly more empathy in the viewer
than many of images themselves – thus downgrading the images to more of a
supporting role. In a photographic project the images should be at the
forefront!
I will obviously need to discuss
the way forward with my tutor. One possibility might be to remove some images
entirely and replace others with montages that do not directly relate to events
described in the accompanying text, perhaps focussing on more general issues relating
to depression. This would require a lot more work and would mean throwing
out much hard work and effort, but might be possible within the time
constraints of the project. However, my tutor’s initial reaction to the new
square ‘chapter heading’ images, which start to look at this area, was not
encouraging.
I promised myself that I would
produce a photo book as a personal memorial to my mother and that promise still
stands, whether or not it is done within or outside the confines of this
course. I am also determined to finish this course within the two years that I
have to complete it, submit for assessment and earn a degree. After
that it will definitely be time to move on!